One freezing, sunny and beautiful March 3rd Morning I found myself reading an email that would change my life for better. Everything I have ever wanted since I was eight was right there. I was having a horrible week and I, being an empath, could just feel that shit was hitting the fan and something drastic was going to happen. I was just having a bad week. A week that led me to need some clarity so I went to the cemetery to visit my little brother. I was sobbing, waiting and surrendering my life to the universe. I had to leave the cemetery and go to work and that’s when I looked at my phone at what seemed to be the longest stop light ever. It was an email from NYU that said “please view here a decision has been made on your application.” I wanted to read it to get it over with so the worst week could continue to be the worst week and to my surprise read “congratulations you have been admitted.”
Today is April 3rd it would have been my brother’s 21st birthday and although he passed on now our bond is so strong. When my brother passed away my mom had a session with our energy reader and my brother came through. At this point in my life I was going to graduate college and I didn’t know what I was going to do. My brother told my mom ““Do not let Blair stay home, I will help her get to New York for Broadway. Her dream.” My family and myself have been very hard on me and where I am headed, my dreams of being an artist always got pushed aside as it’s seen as not a real job. I am ambitious and I know I have it in me to make a real difference through my passion and my brother knew it too.
It wasn’t until December I was having my very own session with our energy reader and she asked “what do you want to do in life if money was no object?” I told her about New York and she said your brother wants to help you but, you have to ask him. I applied to NYU in January and since then everyday I wrote in my journal asking my brother to help me. On February 14th I was getting ready to leave for a business trip in Baltimore when I begged and begged my brother while falling asleep for him to give me a sign and show me my next steps. That Wednesday I was randomly walking around downtown Baltimore and saw a sign as plain as day “Blair New York 88”. I looked at what the number 88 meant and it is an angel number that means good luck, fortune and, new beginnings. As I share this story with you I am listening to the song called “Where it is written” sung by Barbra Streisand from the movie Yentl. “And tell me where, where is it written what it is I’m meant to be. That I can’t dare to see the meanings In the mornings that I see.” and it was written. So clearly. Blair New York 88. I want to thank my brother because I know that I am where I am because he is rooting for me. In his story I want to share with my future students. As a future theatre educator I want to create a safe space where they can share their quirks, their questions of why and tear down boundaries against one another. So another big thank you to my inspiration Ethan who was quirky asked a ton of questions and attempted to tear down boundaries. Cheers to my biggest cheerleader in heaven. Happy 21st and together we will celebrate our milestones and passion.
Spilling The Beans 